Spotlighting Lauryn

Lauryn is my brother Alan and Kristen's first child.
She is 5 years old.
Her favorite colors are Pink and Brown.
Her favorite song is Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star.
Lauryn isn't sure what she wants to be when she grows up.
Her favorite foods are hamburgers and corn.
She says that she doesn't have a least favorite food because she likes a bunch of different things.
Lauryn's favorite activity is making crafts.
Her favorite toy is her For Real Kitty that Grandma bought her for her birthday.
She likes to drive around in the car with her Mom.
She likes to stay home with her Dad.
She likes to play with her little sisters, Madalyn and Kamryn.
Something that make Lauryn happy is when her sisters are nice to her.

I love to watch Lauryn smile her eyes light up and you can see how full of life she is. She let's her light shine through her actions and words. She has a huge vocabulary and can use it correctly. She is full of questions and is always willing to comfort someone who needs it. She sees the good in people and in the situations that happen in life. Her little laugh is contagious. Oh yea this girl can dance. She loves music and its like she can't help herself when she hears it she has to sing and move her body. She also has a very good imagination. When we are in Utah we always get an after dinner show from her, Hannah and Haley. This girl is defiantly a girly girl. She loves to wear dresses. One thing I love to see is when see catches a glimpse of herself in the mirror, she smiles and fixes her hair, I love that she is happy with who she is. After all she is perfect in every way.

Happy Birthday Dad!!

Happy Birthday Dad!! It has only been a little more than a month since you left this earth but, it feels like forever. Thank you Dad for always believing in me; even when I didn't believe in myself. You have always been my biggest cheerleader, coach, friend and hero. I often pick up the phone to tell you something funny Joseph and Jacob have said or to ask your advice; only to realize that I can't. Although, I do call the house, a lot, just to hear your voice on the message. I do find solace in the fact that you are no longer suffering. Carter also reminded me that you are not alone; Olivia is with you and now that you are in heaven she won't be alone any longer. I KNOW that you will forever be with me in my heart!! I feel you with me everyday especially when I see a beautiful sunrise or sunset or watch my boys smile and laugh. Last night I watched the lightening dance across the sky and remembered all the times we would watch in awe together. I felt peaceful like you were sitting next to me. Everytime I have felt all alone I hear a song that reminds me of you. I take the words to songs and change them to make myself feel better like in the song Rosanna I say "Oh Jamie," cause I remember you singing it to me that way. I know it's stale but, it makes me feel closer to you. Today I heard this song and felt like you were telling me everything was going to be okay. It will be okay in time but, for now the silly little things are getting us all through this.

I Believe
Every now and then soft as breath upon my skin
I feel you come back again
And its like you haven't been gone a moment from my side
Like the tears were never cried
Like the hands of time are holding you and me
And with all my heart I'm sure were closer than we ever were
I don't have to hear or see, Ive got all the proof I need
There are more than angels watching over me
I believe, I believe

That when you die your life goes on
It doesn't end here when you re gone
Every soul is filled with light
It never ends and if I'm right
Our love can even reach across eternity
I believe, I believe

Forever, you're a part of me
Forever, in the heart of me
And I'll hold you even longer if I can
The people who don't see the most
Say that I believe in ghosts
And if that makes me crazy, then I am
cause I believe

There are more than angels watching over me
I believe, I believe
Every now and then soft as breath upon my skin
I feel you come back again I believe

I LOVE YOU DAD!!!